You're on your own my little nightmare

So I’m a very anti social person I feel. Or more so awkward and shy if anything, because if I know someone then yeah I can talk to them. But I knew I wasn’t gonig to know very many people there except Alayna. And also I hate to be ditched… So I get off work at about 9:45, go get Betsey at Kenny’s and change. I was texting him before I went to the guy’s house. Got directions and all. So I get on the block, called him and no answer. I kinda got mad and irriatted and almost just wanted to go home since it was here in Imperial anyway… And there wasn’t any parking on the block so I turned the corner and parked and planned on waiting for him to call me back. I then see someone running and I assume and hope it’s Kenny. And it is. He’s soaked. I thought he was sweating. Turns out he got dumped into the pool, with his phone so it’s now wet and not working. Have no way of talking to him until tomorrow during the day when he’s off of work maybe. Anywho. I left Betsey in the truck and went in with him. He wasn’t very socially affectionate which kinda bummed me out. But whatever. So he had changed into board shorts and had no shirt on. We get into the house I said hi to about maybe three people I’ve met before… And then poof! He was gone. Fucking great I thought. And I got my phone out and just started texting. Some dude kinda hit my arm, didn’t mean to, and he appologized and introduced himself. I said hi and kept texting on my phone. I then saw Rielly. I was a little unsure weither or not to say hi but I did and he even said hi, shook my hand, asked how I was and I asked how he was. Neutral which is good. So luckily I saw Alayna right next to me! She was drunk and got me a beer. I saw two girls from high school, one from middle school actually. And we talked for a while. Kenny came back with a shirt on. It was a super chill night. Kenny’s friend Tim, his girl friend asked about Betsey so I went and got her out. It was mostly just Kenny and me from that moment on. When I brought Betsey in Rielly kinda petted her for a while and even on the way out we said bye to him (only because he was right there) and he said he hadda say bye to Betsey too. Not gonna lie, it bothers me that I feel like I wasn’t good enough for that guy yanno. Even though I’m REALLY happy with Kenny and I have no problems with him at all. Still annoys me though. I hate that though. But oh well. I’m better off I know and I don’t want him anyway so eh!! There’s this one guy I met when I was with Rielly at the bar once and that night he was nice to me. I’ve seen him before since then with Kenny and he looks like he fucking hates me!! It’s sooooo awkward!!! And I’m not too sure if it’s in my head or what… Anyway, I don’t really talk to any of his friends all cool except maybe Tim, and that’s because he talks to me so it’s cool. His friend Kevin will talk to me too but I don’t see him too much. I dunno how to be around these guys. It feels like it’s different when it comes to Border Patrol white dudes. HA!!